Because I Have Some Regrets

{day 12}

when it comes to the mystery of time
perspicuity comes in retrospection
now i see - 
we insist upon things
or we don't
time does not care

and so i will discard it-
the persistent counting
as if there is a beginning and an end

it is so flawed
so many limiting presuppositions
early
late
in time
(or on it)

only a container
a box
to categorize and label
then close up

maybe you disagree
maybe you say;

time is a tool
a motivator
keeps us from chaos
from wasting our lives

maybe


i think i will measure my life
under a different paradigm;

the sun is up
i am here!
there are things i want
and do not have

i am going to get them
choice by tiny choice -
pay attention
i will measure this way -
when i know better,
i will do it


i insist upon it.