My heart wasn't in it. I felt compelled into making the goals because there are 30 days in the month and somehow I got it into my brain that I had to do something because it was a 30 day month. Silly.
In the context of the November goals I made on the blog, November was, as my son Jack would say, "a total fail". That's not to say that there weren't some small, shining moments:
- I did meet (and exceed) my indexing goal. Admittedly, that was just the luck of not knowing what to anticipate and not being able to make an accurate guess as to what would be considered a real challenge. It was cake.
- And, though I didn't post everyday, I really did make time each day (in prayer, in mediation) to consider all those things for which I am grateful. This goal made for a happy November. It is a habit I hope to adopt as second-nature. A joyful life requires it, and I like being happy.
- As for the other stuff? Meh.
And so, that's it. I could call it a flop. I normally would focus on all the ways in which I failed, and berate myself for being so lame that I can't even make my bed everyday for a month (I mean, how hard is it, really?). But then I heard something at a church meeting this weekend. A man I know as Elder Baxter said something really interesting, and it helped me a lot. To paraphrase;
In the court of self-judgement, do not allow only evidence from the prosecution. Allow evidence from the defense as well! Give each equal floor time!
And so, if I am to evaluate all of November itself (and even just the blog goals themselves), I would say I have had a really great month. November wasn't a flop. It was a gift. I wasn't a flop. There is much to improve, sure, but I also learned some valuable things as a result of the goals I made. I am grateful to have had the time and I am looking forward to even better things in December.
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